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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Last Updated: 21.06.2025 00:08

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Is there a stereotype that South Indians are physically strong and muscular compared to other regions of India?

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

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All the time i was locked up.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

But ive been too sick for many years..

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Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Is it true that people who are possessed by demons cannot see them until the demon is cast out? What is the reason for this?

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I have no regrets .

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Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

What kind of person makes you think "how come there are people like that"?

I couldn’t, believe it.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

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But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

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I said to her

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

What do gang stalkers want?

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Was to survive, this bastard.

When she asked me how she looked .

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At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Why am I so wanting to suck a penis?

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Have you ever seen a woman having sex with a dog?

Would this be the day?

But, we were locked up after school.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

What do porn stars do when they get old?

She found it foreign!.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

She wouldn,t have been !

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Ive learnt so much.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Why did i forgive my father ?

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Comes on , in middle age.

So, i spoilt her more .

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I was very sick at this time too.

What did i know ?

This is soul school!.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Especially a lifetime of it.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I was 9 years of age.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

She married twice! .

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

One cannot live in the past .

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I waited trembling.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

My life is so biszare .

I write beautiful poetry .

As i do to all so called friends.?

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I don,t even have a pension.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

It was going to be , some day.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

He knew the spot.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Who then, do I blame.?

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Put me off passion for life!!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

We were not on the streets..

So whats the point in blame.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

She was in good health!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

(And it was in our own minds.)

I had hoped to write a book about this .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I will be 64.

I was seconnd youngest,

He resisted the act ,that day.

I was scared of men, in general

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

We all went to grammer schools

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I never cut or harmed myself..

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

She loved him until the end.

Im still living with it.

But it wasn’t much.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

My family never makes their pension either.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I did it because my mum asked me too!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I think the readers, may guess!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

And i lived it daily.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Im dying but, im not bitter.